3 days ... i was given that chance but i let you slip by me ...... i was totally wrong (TOTALLY)...... i was not brave enough ...... didn't want to push myself on her, letting her have some time with her friends ...... but end up just making her feel i'm not there for her(don feel any couple stuff in it)...... everyday how i wish i can wait at mrt for her, hold her hands all the way, kiss her on cheek to say goodbye, message her while in class that i always miss her, sent her straight to her doorstep ...... i never did ...... afraid to scare her off ......
that sms she sent me that she can't forget her ex ( i dun mind to one beside her to help her forget), i was not auto (yes i admit it cause i didn't want to lose you), that i was pressuring her or lie to her (which i swear that i would never will)......
there is no second chance for me that's what she said ...... so today i decided to fight for the second chance even tho she announce that she back to single (but i will still be in love with her and that cannot change) ...... i when to tanah merah mrt and wait for her from 7.15 to 8.30 ...... was hoping that the next one coming out from escalator is her( my heart keep pounding), i smsed her none replied ...... she never came and what came last was just that she out of house.
during break i saw her but need to rush for OH bonding session so i didn't went up to her ...... i knew her timetable so after school i waited for her ... 4-6 even her classmate had long gone ... sms sent over and over again ...... all i want to do is to let her know how i serious about my love and will to do all to get the second chance ...... until almost 10 then she replied me ......
I know i think too much but i really ... argh ... think about those you said, i wondering if that she say before is real ...... does her like and love that insignificant ... or was i one sided all alone ... she told me to be back as friend but can i do that ? what i want is already out of what's friend and now that you want me to be friend, not make relationship worst, i really dunno how to face it ...... do i still treat you like now which want to be your bf or just ignore you that never ever left a footprint in my heart...
