Thinking of you 365 days a year, 24 hours a day, 60 mins a hour, every single seconds was thinking about you. Like a moth naturally attracted to the special light, the sun. I was happy after times and times reject to sent dear home, she allows me. Had me jump from bed and straight to bath and out to meet her. Still care about friends i dun mind waiting other places. How i wish there is so much of this chance but she will be sad in class for the next one and half year. Seeing dear sleeping peacefully was joy in my heart, trying not to wake her up. Gently, whisper how i felt, guess she wouldn't know but i'm contented.
Spending moments beside her was like in heaven, tho i didn't talk much. Had prolly regret me being there instead of friends. Sent her right till the bus-stop as she wanted scare being seen and cause unwanted issue. Keep messaging her was wat on my mind even if i'm not hearing her voice. Things been so sweet till dear was in no mood to chat.
Starting to worry wat happened at home. She never replied and strange post appeared in fb. Then i guess pretty much in her mind right now. Thinking long, along to wat she likes, the dust finally settled down and know why. Hoping that it would not be wat she going to say but god played a joke on me i guess. pretty going to swear to kill god if he/she/it exist.
Know you want to have it slowly, having security and not having big changes. A promise that you had to kept for next one half year. A struggling mind to not have memories treated like a fake. Maybe thinking how to be around now. Be words on my heart, i be waiting for you. Be beside you through up and down till the day you choose a knight on horse that carry you forever. Making you as happy as a clam, you do not need to think it be unfair neither sorry cause you still worth it and i didn't regret which not in my dictionary. I shall kept it on my phone till one day to show you. Not unglam pictures but messages deep within my soul.
