First day of school reopen, the feeling of a newbie going to school again. Single and alone, easy and carefree. Wondering if that's a good thing. Caught up with yik and group in interchange and go school. Same old shirt, same old day, same old bus, different old me. How much had i change in short while ? i do not know but i would be seeing a strange me. A me that i do not even recongise myself.
After lunch, i saw her. With her group walking around in cafe 1 looking for seats. The stupid me splits again. I try act i never see her again(i know i know why must like this). However, i just can't control and keep looking in her direction. Well ... she caught me like last time. I waved back, wishing i could eat lunch with her alone. Talking to her like the world only have 2 of us. Haiz what i thinking ... she with her friends le ... there i when off to co-op to buy drink.
Somehow my life in sch always been "running away" mode. Ya right ! sleeping, dozing, resting, what ever you call it just a nice nice name for it.
Well mr quek come find me again. My parent thinking "If you never do anything wrong in school, there is no reason why teacher would call for you or us". As predicted like what he did half year ago, he pass me popular voucher as reward for scoring well in my exam. Saying about that, i thought i screwed up my exams totally in that ... ok depress period ...... by chance, it seen like everyone doing worst than me but exceptionally better then other class. He just ended class so prolly she just ended class.
When to bustop but 31 had left so i msg her. Wonder if i should be worried cuz she said she is sick but with the last part, i start feeling kinda very ......sad. Now thinking of that, she refused many times. Friends, study, family, wondering which is real ?
Maybe that the difference why i can never be the one instead
