Think it's already time i long get use to it ...... people come and go, say and forget.
You guys know why i don't always get close to people guys or girls ...... betray by your buddies, infatuation with girls if get close too much. Yup, buddies who you think can have fun, sorrow and secret with end up one saying them out creating those sorrow behind your back. Girl who got too close cause i just been ...... too good i guess, always try to control myself to keep distance from all. Once this person,S ,told me Virgo person(which is me are like that, how could i say wrong =( ;
Virgo :
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling.
However, what can i do here ? Hurt inside cause day i been waiting for counting for. For what i remind myself. P once promises will be there to watch my on-coming taekwando sparring match but well ...... guess she forgets it. The sweet promises that's been said just like expired honey, actually taste bitterish yuck. Why do i remembers ALL things we do together, ALL words we said, ALL promises made, ALL just came back to nothing.
Ya just had selection matches yesterday. All those thinking and training, wasted ? My mind didn't pull out those move i though of, my reflexes didn't work at all(what the hell my mind was in). Just like some low belt, totally not up to standard. Sir told me this that my performance is just average(ok for a club, young lion level). Is that really average ? It like almost not even a club. I don't know what i been thinking. Somehow ...... somehow ...... i manage to snap out of it in time i guess. Twice blows swept through my defense and pass right in front of my face, feeling the nails scratched my chin when i pull back. What am i thinking about now ? You going to be a dumbie and get yourself killed(ya my opp. was pikachu, he was dam serious and can't control himself once he in match) ? Was thinking that i can't be knock down ...... not here, not now. My last simple promises to someone; "Take care of yourself xiongxiong".
Everything lives on reasons, to walk, to hide, to study, even least to live. Reasons keep one alive, reasons keep one going strong. Without reasons, everything will deem pointless.
There's where i reverse the positions and turn the table. Trapping and attacking pikachu in corner repeatedly. Sorry pikachu ...... i had to live to fulfill my side of promise (least ...... that's what didn't do what i hate to do, LIE)
Ya i been acting a happy joyful person, one that even give councilling, to people ...... least that's what i want people to though. Tears start to drop when i writing this ...... dunno for what but ya ( ha ... stupid bear try make singapore flood again ) ...... All this history taught me to be one person. A lonely person that can only depends on his shadow. That's how he, Lee Wei Xiong, or should i say xiongxiong goes through everything.
